Confessions of a Pastor

So I'm watching Hells Kitchen tonight. There's this guy, can't even remember what his name is but he annoys the heck out of me. This guy is so driven that he tries to produce fancy dishes that nobody even knows what they are called. The other two guys on the guys team just have a good time and honestly I would much rather have a meal from the guys that just have a good time cooking. I realized I'm the guy that is so driven. My standard is so high I can't even meet it anymore, I can't even have fun at times. I love God, and the reason why I am in ministry is because I can't help but do something for Him because He's touched my life. The ministry idol has to die, it has to. A scripture that I read this week 1 Corinthians 16:14 "Do everything in Love" keeps ringing in my head. I love God, I love people, I love life and I don't want to mess it up. I am nothing without God, without His Love and without Him leading my heart, I'm just some foolish guy that is crazy enough to live with huge dream, and crazy enough to think that God can use him to touch the world. Practically speaking I'm finding myself needing to get back to heart much more often as I dream bigger and chase closer. I constantly have to go back to heart because otherwise I'm just crazy.